Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Taking a walk to where the Earth Meets the Stars…

I saw the beauty of the Sky and Sea mate,
Heard the hissing Sun take a dip in the sea,
Before relaxing in the lap of welcoming Earth,
The beauty of their distance, the illusion of their closeness…

They all live miles apart from each other,

My feelings are profoundly influencing the perception of reality.
A constant craving for distance and closeness…
Clouds bend down to touch the waiting trees
Causing Shadows; similar to
Days and nights that cause havoc in my head.

Illusions are real when you have a stubborn point to view,
And the earth meets the stars while
Rainbow holds hands with the moon;
When it rains in space.

Friday, July 24, 2009

A Quickie... for the week-end

My brother swallowed jamun's (its a KIND of BERRY) seed, A Fruit Which has barely any flesh on top, makes the tongue go all purple, and it tastes kinda acidic, but is the most famous among Monkeys and children. We ran up to my grand dad, and he said... "Ayya NOW a JAMUN Tree will grow out of Gopi's head..."
I thought That was SOO COOL, Ran and swallowed some 3 or 4 seeds that night, and for a week I would put water to my feet and hope that The tree would grow out of me too... I checked everyday for the next week and Finally I decided to go check with my mom on the progress. and SHE JUST DIDN"T STOP LAUGHING.

I should also write about how much trouble I got into trying to make RUBBER with Pigeon Shit and goats Milk...

PS: I still wish I was a Tree That could fly far, and rooted DEEP.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

What does how we treat other people say about us?

A Call to the Support System

I read some where that each one of us, whether we realize it or not, moves through life in the company of those who watch over us, and I think its true… Grand fathers, Moms, Best friends, Gods, spirit guides, angels, any one who we totally trust also can provide us security and serve as protectors and guides.

There is a saying in Telugu; “Adagandi Ammayinaa annam pettadu” (Even a mother doesn’t sense the hunger and serve the food if we don’t ask) even tho’ our protectors take pleasure in their roles yet cannot assist us without first being asked.

Since the origins of our sacred sentinels differ, we may choose whom we call upon for help based on the situation at hand, whether it’s about spirituality, health or emotional issues or plane human needs.

As the quote says God couldn’t be every where for ever body so He made Moms, But only guys in India remain with parents for the rest of their lives where as girls leave after the wedding and in Western countries girls and guys leave home at an young age and build a support system of their own…

However, in certain circumstances, particularly in which time we feel extremely vulnerable and when the world seems to be standing on the other side of the shore teasing us to swim upstream to catch up… we may feel the need for moral support, a kind word or just the combined presence will give us a sense of security that strengthens you and reminds you that you are never alone and giving us the strength of 10 elephants working on us thousand folds better than a blessed talisman..

I think though people around us are always ready to help us how easy is it for us to accept help and First and foremost ask for help in dangerous, chaotic, or confounding moments???

Asking for help does it make us feel small? No on the contrary… To understand the need for help and to seek it from some one who cares for us and in whom we trust and then to respect the fact that the person is willing to sit through the agonizingly slow process of giving us hand while we recuperate. Needs a lot of courage… It’s not so easy to give, but to ask and take is tougher, I think.

The roles of the supporters and the supported interchange; like when we were babies our Moms took care of us and when Moms get older we take care of them…

I wish the watchful guardians and the watched all the very best and a quick recovery from their emotional physical and spiritual short comings.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


I asked one of my colleagues if he would like to go out for a walk with me and He said... Why ???

A walk with out a purpose according to me is the best kind there could be... No where to go... Not to exercise no looking for an auto...

JUST A WALK... Its a beautiful experience.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Bad Days...

Guess we all have days from time to time when it feels like the whole world is against us. The chaos I am experiencing will it ever end ?!?!?. One negative circumstance seems to lead to another.

These were the Thoughts That I went to bed with...

I wonder whether anything in my life will ever go right again. But Yesterday like any other bad day, was a gift. Having a bad day showed me that it is time to slow down, change course, or lighten up. Helped me to gather slowly and laboriously, bit by bit some wisdom I have overlooked or discounted. Yesterday certainly caused me to experience uncomfortable feelings I would prefer to avoid, yet it also gave me a potent means to learn about myself...

    • I smile a lot and people find me easy to approach
    • I am interested in people
    • People are attracted to me, naturally
    • I can get to know people really fast
    • I can talk to anyone at their level.
    • I am always in tune with reality
    • I hate people who always ALWAYS find some one to blame.
    • I know people who turn their backs on us will do it eventually.
    • I get very easily angry but can apologise easily.
    • I have a bad habit of keeping a count of how many times I excuse someone.
    • I am very stubborn.
    • I exercise mind flexibility and wish to stretch it to its full potential.
    • I have a WISH and a WILL to better my life always.

Flexibility is the capacity to bend without breaking, as well as a continual willingness to change or be changed in order to accommodate new circumstances. I am attracted to such people with flexible minds, who are open to shifting their course when necessary or useful; some one who is not overly attached to things going the way they had planned is really My hero... This enables to anyone to take advantage of opportunities that a more rigid person would miss out on, making life a lot more fun. When we are flexible, we allow for situations we could not have planned, and so the world continues to surprise and delight us.

I think we are more in tune with reality when we are flexible. Being in tune enables us to adjust to the external environment and other people as they change and grow. When we are rigid or stuck in our ways, instead of adjusting to the world around us we hunker down, clinging to a concept of reality rather than reality itself. When we do this, we cut ourselves off from life, and we miss out on valuable opportunities, as well as a lot of joy.

So I promise myself that the way I create flexibility in my body by stretching physically, I am going to also create limberness in my mind by stretching mentally. Every day is a new day a new opportunity to exercise my flexibility.


  • Implementing from Today on... I will avoid everyone and anyone who poses to be a friend/family or a well wisher So they can stay close enough to watch my misery and make me feel further guilty. I am the most important person to me... and what counts is MY happiness.

BUT will give yesterday an other chance.

  • Will try with small things and in small ways.
  • Take a different route from home to work
  • Changing the exercise routine.
  • Rearrange the furniture and redo a room.
  • Will meditate in the morning.
  • Won't be blind to the fact that each situation unfold into several different possibilities.
  • I trust in life and its never been unfair to me.
  • For how the next year will unfold makes me feel apprehensive exited and afraid, will welcome all the feelings with Open arms.
  • I AM the channel as I do this making my mind more supple and open, when finally changes come my way I will accommodate and will flow with the new reality.

Monday, July 6, 2009


Why did you do that ???
His skin fiery glossy reflecting the angry full moon light...
Hissing like a snake... He asked again...
WHY BUT why did you do that ???
Silence... NO words... Just bright loud moonlight... NO tears... Nothing.
The question resounding, each letter of the sentence flying in different directions to shatter against the walls cracking into thin sharp weapons to bounce back at her, tearing into her... leaving many tiny scratches on her...
Still the thick silence mocking him... instigating his anger to mount... "Tell me, why did you do it???"
She raised her eyes to look at him... silenced by the brilliance that stood in front of her... A man burning in his own anger... He is melting from inside and burnt flesh is oozing flowing down to form a puddle at his feet...
The coals he chose to swallow for an inexplicable reason... Burning him inside... making his insides glow a golden red like a Halloween Pumpkin...
Why did you do that ??? The words blew out of him like flames... now burning her, hurting her into a state of stubborn Silence...
Her lips closed tighter now... No words
Eyes still dry... No tears
Screaming Moonlight invaded the room... window accepted defeat, So did he... Burning up in flames...
His Ashes scattered by the wind... raised up and onto her... taking refuge in her torn and burnt skin...
"I want to be with you, please love me... I don't care what you did and why you did it..." a loud whisper screaming from zillions of tiny voices moved her.... in to FAT WET TEARS... She looked around for him... to confess... BUT where was he ?

Thursday, July 2, 2009

In The wonderland... I am the redefined Alice...

Let The time solve the Mysteries... I am just content to live in the moment and laugh with you.